I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I’ve done this in my career. From black box-dyed clients wanting to go platinum to fine-haired clients showing me a picture with thick hair…

I was so nervous. I’m pretty sure my hand was shaking, with a vice grip on my “business cards”. They weren’t personalized cards or anything, just an appointment reminder card from the salon with my name penned in.

Realizing you’ve made a huge error can be like a punch to the gut and it’s probably one of the worst feelings ever. I know I always want to run and hide when these situations happen, especially when it’s a client’s hair, or a friend, or family member.

The snow is coming down so heavy I can’t see more than a foot ahead of me. There are no visible tracks from any of the cars ahead of me. The white lines that were previously visible on the road have now disappeared into the flurry of snow.

And I’ll be honest with you, that stung. I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again, at my core, one of my deepest desires is just to have people like me. And when someone says something like “I’ve lost all respect for you”, it makes me want to have a kneejerk reaction of trying to make everything better.

I’m at that point where I really just wanna throw my hands up and scream for it to stop. I just wanna coast! I’ve had enough of these moments!! C’mon universe, can’t I get a break??

You know what I’m talking about, right?

Her response: “But what about my hair?”

I was shocked. Really?? That was the most important thing at that moment? I told her that I just didn’t know at that time, I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to come back.

Even though I was shaking, I was so proud of myself. In the past, I would have apologized and owned this as my fault. But at that moment, I realized they didn’t ask and I was under the assumption that I’m the client, I’m the one paying and I gave you what you needed (the transparent file for the logo).

And as I was reflecting on this the other day, I realized that I’ve really struggled with my self-respect. I don’t know if it happened before or after that moment. But I look back on that situation with a lot of pride on how I handled it at the time.

So this weekend, I went and saw two Backstreet Boys concerns and I got to meet them in person and it was genuinely surreal.

*insert teenage girl scream here*

I know how difficult it can be to carve out time for ourselves. I used to pride myself in working myself to the bone and never taking any time for myself.

I like to say that Human Design is like a personality test combined with astrology. It helps explain how you work as a person and how to thrive.

I spent a lot of my life embarrassed that I didn’t feel like the rest of society and no one understood the way I think. 

I’ve often joked that I’ve been a “professional chameleon” my entire life. Being able to act the part of wherever I’m at with whoever I’m around. But in doing so, I hid the real me for a very long time.

And everyone wanted to know her secret. So she began sharing with her clients her self-love principles.

She shared about how she was taking care of herself and making herself a priority every single morning. She emphasized that it’s not selfish to take care of yourself.

However, I am the queen at minimizing my own pain and simply brushed it off as being part of the appointment. I even asked the chiropractor for another adjustment after taking a minute to regain my composure. After the second adjustment, I was in a lot of pain and could barely move around.

Since I had experienced pain after previous appointments, I didn’t think too much of it and went home.

Let’s be honest, money can sometimes feel dirty (and I don’t mean literally, although that’s definitely true…). How often have we been taught that “money is the root of all evil”?

And part of that sleazy feeling around money has to do with the fact that nobody talks about it. And when nobody talks about it, it makes us think we’re entirely alone in it.

You don’t have to feel guilty for having emotions, humans are complex beings. You’re allowed to feel two things at once and it’s not “bad” or “wrong”.

I had to remind myself this just the other week. I was so excited to be welcoming the new RYB students in but I also had some deep sadness going on behind the scenes.

There was a time that I used to think that the only answer to a question was “yes”. I would always feel obligated to say “yes” to everything. I thought it was the “nice” and “polite” thing to do, especially when it came to business.

From the outside, Stephanie had the white-picket-fence life. She was married at 24, bought a house at 24, was married to a great man and she had it all. They had expensive vehicles, great careers and they were on track to do it all. Then it all got stripped away and Stephanie was left wondering “now what?”.

I cried a lot. I was so embarrassed. I had prided myself on how good of a business owner I was. I had prided myself on how busy I was. Everyone was telling me how great I was doing and I lapped it up.

Anxiety, depression and ADHD is no stranger to today’s guest on the podcast. Meaghan Johnson of Millson and Main walks me through what life looks like for her. Being an entrepreneur, mother, and creative with also taking care of her physical and mental health.

I could so use some time with my friends, I miss getting cozy and chatting about anything and everything. Covid really messed with everything, didn’t it?

Since Covid, It’s not safe to have my friends over to chat and hang, so I thought, what’s the next best thing?

Having you virtually come hang out!

I’m throwing it back to a classic episode of The Anxious Creative. This is one of the all-time favourite episode of my podcast and I’m really happy that we’re bringing it back.

‘Cause let’s be honest, you’re struggling with boundaries.

And I get it, I used to be the exact same way, I lived most of my life not even knowing what boundaries were. If someone asked something of me, I had to say “yes”.

I honestly didn’t think “no” was an option.

I’m no stranger to mental health. (Maybe you’ve heard of my podcast, The *Anxious* Creative?)

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety at 19 years old (in hindsight, I went undiagnosed at a much younger age). I remember coming home crying after getting my diagnosis because of the stigmas I believed about it. I thought it made me a bad person, or that I could never be enough with these labels on me.

It felt like I had been branded with a neon sign saying “WEAK” on my forehead.

I gotta be honest, I didn’t think I’d be so bummed to see this series come to an end!

It was such a treat to spend so much time with Lindsay, chatting about so many different topics. Did you listen to the first four parts? They’ve been so good, right?!

(If you haven’t you might wanna check them out after you listen to this one.)

Well, I think we’re ending the series with the best one (but I might be a little biased), we went a little rogue, as Lindsay puts it.

Today’s episode is all about FAITH *cue George Michael singing: “I gotta have faaiitthhh”.

At first, I didn’t buy it. Mantras? Uh, no thanks. I’d heard the word before, but assumed it was some sort of hippy dippy shit that was a little bit too woo-woo for me.