And I’ll be honest with you, that stung. I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again, at my core, one of my deepest desires is just to have people like me. And when someone says something like “I’ve lost all respect for you”, it makes me want to have a kneejerk reaction of trying to make everything better.

I’m at that point where I really just wanna throw my hands up and scream for it to stop. I just wanna coast! I’ve had enough of these moments!! C’mon universe, can’t I get a break??

You know what I’m talking about, right?

I know how difficult it can be to carve out time for ourselves. I used to pride myself in working myself to the bone and never taking any time for myself.

I spent a lot of my life embarrassed that I didn’t feel like the rest of society and no one understood the way I think. 

I’ve often joked that I’ve been a “professional chameleon” my entire life. Being able to act the part of wherever I’m at with whoever I’m around. But in doing so, I hid the real me for a very long time.

However, I am the queen at minimizing my own pain and simply brushed it off as being part of the appointment. I even asked the chiropractor for another adjustment after taking a minute to regain my composure. After the second adjustment, I was in a lot of pain and could barely move around.

Since I had experienced pain after previous appointments, I didn’t think too much of it and went home.

Meg believes that beauty professionals have a tendency to use their anxiety to get stuff done and view it as a “super-power” that enables them to multitask and do all the things that need to be done.

On the flip side, it can also be extremely detrimental to a business. As Meg discovered when her concept salon failed miserably.

I spent too much time in my life trying to be someone I wasn’t. Trying to “hustle” to the top, only deeming myself worthy if I was “working myself to the bone”. I was so busy and my ego loved it.

But it wasn’t sustainable. By pushing myself to the extreme I landed myself in a hospital bed with a stress-induced panic attack.

Let’s be honest, sometimes we just wish someone else would make the decision for us, am I right? That’s why I’m bringing you this very special post all about decisiveness.

You don’t have to feel guilty for having emotions, humans are complex beings. You’re allowed to feel two things at once and it’s not “bad” or “wrong”.

I had to remind myself this just the other week. I was so excited to be welcoming the new RYB students in but I also had some deep sadness going on behind the scenes.

I was told my whole life that I’m lazy and it was always said with negative connotations. But what if I told you that being lazy can actually help you succeed?

How often have you bent over backwards for a client? Pushed yourself to burnout to make someone else happy? How often have you sacrificed your boundaries to make someone else happy because you believe their needs are greater than yours?

Learning that first and foremost you need to figure out what your boundaries are and then move into a place of honouring and respecting them yourself. If you don’t respect your boundaries first, no one else can.

Intellectual property means that if you take a photo, if you physically press the shutter button, regardless of who is in the image, that photo is your property and you can do whatever you please with it.

Crystal and I both have ADHD, unlike me though, Crystal got her official diagnosis somewhere between 3rd and 5th grade. Looking back, she feels like the diagnosis was more for her parents to understand and learn how to parent her, but Crystal didn’t really understand what it meant to have ADHD until she was 33, about 3 years ago.

Anxiety, depression and ADHD is no stranger to today’s guest on the podcast. Meaghan Johnson of Millson and Main walks me through what life looks like for her. Being an entrepreneur, mother, and creative with also taking care of her physical and mental health.

Welcome back to The Anxious Creative! I am so excited to introduce you to our special guest. I’ve been following this hairstylist from afar for literal years. And I’ve always had an internal narrative that “I’m probably not cool enough to hang out with her”.

She’s a kick-ass hairstylist, she’s an educator and I’m so excited for you to get connected with her in this episode.

Her story is amazing. If you relate to being an anxious creative, you’re going to get so much out of this episode.

Buckle up friend, get ready for a wild ride with Mish Jolie.

**CW: Talk of abuse, suicide, divorce and assault**

I’m so excited to be bringing you this episode of The Anxious Creative. I’ve got a super special guest for you, Mark Peyton. He’s a barbershop owner, mental health advocate and fellow Canadian from Nova Scotia.

It’s been a long time coming, but I think the Anxious Creative has waited long enough for a barber to come on to the show. He’s got such a heart of gold and I can’t wait for you to dive into this episode.

I’m throwing it back to a classic episode of The Anxious Creative. This is one of the all-time favourite episode of my podcast and I’m really happy that we’re bringing it back.

‘Cause let’s be honest, you’re struggling with boundaries.

And I get it, I used to be the exact same way, I lived most of my life not even knowing what boundaries were. If someone asked something of me, I had to say “yes”.

I honestly didn’t think “no” was an option.

I’m no stranger to mental health. (Maybe you’ve heard of my podcast, The *Anxious* Creative?)

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety at 19 years old (in hindsight, I went undiagnosed at a much younger age). I remember coming home crying after getting my diagnosis because of the stigmas I believed about it. I thought it made me a bad person, or that I could never be enough with these labels on me.

It felt like I had been branded with a neon sign saying “WEAK” on my forehead.

I’m so excited to bring you another episode of The Anxious Creative with special guest, an RYB Alumni and Mastermind member, Rebecca Anthony.

I’ve seriously been waiting for this episode for SO long.

Rebecca’s been a fan of the show since its inception 2 years ago. (For those OG listeners, you might recall that my show hasn’t always been called The Anxious Creative).

We’re back at it again with another awesome episode of The Anxious Creative.

This week I’ve got my friend and student Jen Shattuck from Oregon coming to chat about moving across the country, learning new techniques and following your dreams.

She’s been in the hair industry for 14 years (a little longer if you count schooling). She had an amazing opportunity to start cosmetology education in high school. Before she took the class she could barely paint her nails or do makeup, she didn’t know anything about cosmetology!

Oh I’ve got a treat for you today. Although I’m definitely still riding the high of my 5-part series with Lindsay Mayuga I’m super pumped to be bringing you this new episode.

I’ve got a very special guest today, my good friend, Piper De Young. I’m so excited to have her on the podcast.

Piper and I have known each other for years, yet we’ve only met IRL a handful of times. (Isn’t the internet such a cool way to meet new people?)Piper is a brand mentor (I actually get chills listening to her explain her job. She’s so passionate!) who helps stylists and make up artists with styling their brand. (Okay, I paraphrased her pretty badly ‘cause you gotta go and listen to her explain it! Seriously guys, chills.)